Wow. Time flies. These kids are big.
Things are good here. Changing and staying the same. We plug along- we are people set in our ways- but when I look back, I see how much has changed over the years. And I tell you moms of toddlers, it gets easier and harder in so many different ways. The sleep it does come. Eventually. But the worries get replaced with bigger ones. That's for sure. But ever so slowly, these babies grow into real people, with their own triumphs and troubles to handle, little by little, more and more on their own. And it's an amazing thing to watch.
Middle school is not easier the second time around. He handles it well; we silently stress. It's just as awkward as it ever was, all the social navigating. He's shy. His old friends have moved on. He pines for the old days, wants to be included, but still, he handles it well. He's trying to make new friends, which is hard. We give advice, but we're annoying. He'd rather just hang out at home with us, which in some ways is comforting, but in others breaks your heart into a million pieces. He's a great kid, so funny when he's relaxed. He has so many quirky interests. Smart as a whip and clueless at the same time. I love that about him.
She, on the other hand, feels anxiety. School is stressful. She'd rather be crafting something, making cookies for the dog, gluing glitter all over a t-shirt, looking up recipes for bath bombs, lip gloss, hand lotion, planning dance parties. She's social, has tons of friends, but feels the stress of settling fights between them. Her anxiety manifests itself physically and emotionally. We try to help. We try to stay calm, and that, my friends, is hard. We want her to have fun, but she has to work hard and learn too. And talk about funny?! This girl is a card.
The payment for all the hard work is getting to know these people they're becoming. It's always an interesting trial, though, this parenting gig. Not for the faint of heart.
The company Brian worked for has been purchased by a big engineering firm in town, and it's a good, good thing. It's steady and financially great, but the transition to corporate work life has been a challenge to say the least. It's still so new, but we will all adjust. I'm still looking for a part time job, if anyone local hears of anything. I keep applying for jobs as they open at IKEA. I think that would be so fun, but no luck so far. I was looking fairly seriously before family photos season started, and after Christmas I'll start again. One big change at a time.
I have so many thoughts about privilege and what's been going on in the news, but I'm having trouble wrapping my head around it and knowing how to put it into words. All I can say is that it's just so sad. Melissa always says it well. Read her words instead.
And did you hear about habit? It's their last month. I'm honored to have been a small part of that wonderful collaboration; I'll be there participating this month with all the ladies. I will miss it when it's over.
So. Today. I'm just trying my best to be a good human and raise these kids. That's all I've got today.